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<i>♪ Bless us, O Lord
And these your gifts we pray ♪</i>

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<i>♪ To bring us strength
To do your will today ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪</i>

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<i>♪ May not the constant
Grace for God be still ♪</i>

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<i>♪ They all who hunger
Have their needs fulfilled ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪</i>

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<i>♪ Alleluia, alleluia ♪</i>

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Peace be with you, sisters.

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Although, at first
I hesitated to deviate

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from the usual solemnity
of our meal times,

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I had to acknowledge
that tonight, indeed,

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should be a joyous occasion.

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Sister Gertrude has been
with us for many years.

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And celebrating the birthday
of a sister in Christ

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- summons us to-
- Nun: Whores!

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You are whores!
You are all whores of Christ!

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And you will fucking burn
in hell!

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You are vain
and you are lustful!

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And I see you! He sees you!

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Cocksuckers!

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...your fucking God!

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Fuck you!

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Maybe ever fretting shirt
of punishment

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give myrrh-threaded
the golden folds of ease.

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Your scarce sheathed bones

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are weary of being bent.

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Lo, and God shall strengthen
all the feeble knees.

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Benjamin, you remember
your Hopkins.

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- You're looking well.
- Thank you.

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Uh, what were you
doing just now?

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Admiring the handiwork.

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Not even Solomon in his glory
was arrayed as one of these.

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And I understand
congratulations are in order.

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I heard you passed your exams,
if only just barely.

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Just as you taught me.
If you can't be good,

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be good enough.

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Right.
Good advice for all of us.

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And I'm kidding, of course.

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Reports are you did brilliantly.

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How long have you been out,
a semi-free man?

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Three weeks, Father Donaghue.

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I'm gonna take my vows
in the spring.

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And then they're talking about
taking me on at St. Joseph's.

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Perfect, Saint Joe's.

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God knows we could use
one like you.

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Days like this,

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I think the church got
it wrong with Augustine.

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Too much original sin.

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It seems more likely
that we were conceived

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in a state of original blessing.

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Well, don't tell
the bishop that.

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Oh, of course I wouldn't.

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Wait, the bishop?

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Why are you here Benjamin?

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Well, they called on me
to fetch you,

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the bishops
in Father Cappa's office.

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He's here? Jesus Christ. Fuck.

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And there's another
priest with them, too.

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Tall, glasses?

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It's vicar general,
isn't it, Father Exley?

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I thought this was good news.

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No, Benjamin,
it is not good news.

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- It's the worst possible news.
- How do you know that?

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Ah, Christ, and they
sent you to fetch me,

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to humiliate me, no doubt.

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What are you even
talking about?

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Just forget it.
Thy will be done.

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Take a seat, gentlemen.

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Relax, Frank,
it's not what you think.

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I assume you're familiar
with a convent

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in the far corner
of our diocese,

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the Carmelite Santa Theresa?

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- Yes.
- Understand that this matter

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requires the utmost discretion.

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Of course.

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You have special training,
I'm told.

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All kinds. Not so much
with religious sisters.

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- Do you think this is funny?
- Let's just cut to the chase.

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Two weeks ago,
there was an incident

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with one of the sisters
at Santa Teresa.

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An incident? You're serious?

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His eminence and I rarely
leave the seat of the diocese.

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I assure you,
we are absolutely serious.

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Does he need to be here?
I don't think he's ready.

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Frank, just stop.
They have their reasons.

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We'll get to that later.

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I have to admit,
I don't understand.

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Be glad you don't.

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They're talking about
the Holy Rite of Exorcism.

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- So, what happened?
- The signs are all there,

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spontaneous violent outbursts,

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eruptions of vile blasphemy,

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surprising feats of strength.

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Their diagnoses
was inconclusive.

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Dissociative disorder?

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Yes.
So vague it might as well

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be demonic possession.

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What
do we know about this girl?

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She's lived there for years.

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Their record's almost a blank,
no family to call.

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No history of psychological
problems, sexual abuse?

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None that we know about.

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I almost find it amusing
you would ask that.

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This is hardly useful right now.

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My apologies.

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But what will happen is this.

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The two of you will drive to
Santa Teresa early tomorrow,

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talk to the sisters, investigate
this poor girl's symptoms.

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Stay as long as you need to.
Use your...

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judgment.

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At the very least,
we need to rule out

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the worst case scenario.

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Possession?
Actual demonic possession?

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Right, you understand
I don't really believe

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in this medieval woo-woo?

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You understand that you're
in no position to refuse?

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The sisters
will be expecting you.

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Father Cappa will help you
with anything else you need.

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You're dismissed,
Father Donaghue.

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Benjamin,
would you stay a moment?

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What did...

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Oh. Gene, don't do this.

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I'm sorry, Frank.

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I'll talk to you
tomorrow morning.

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This is gonna be
difficult to hear.

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It's hard to say.

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He's been a good friend
of mine for years,

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and he's done so much
good for this parish.

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Until now.

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We're sending him away,

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far away from here,
perhaps overseas.

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What's going on?

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What is the shame
of the church right now?

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No, I don't believe it.

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I don't either.

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But accusations have been made,
and he doesn't deny them.

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Pray for him,

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but keep an eye on him.

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We're afraid the added
pressure is making him...

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- erratic.
- Desperate.

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Am I gonna have
to worry about...

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- my own welfare?
- What do you mean?

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Am I gonna be safe with him?

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You're a grown man, Benjamin.
You're gonna be just fine.

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What?

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Well?

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Sisters,
get some clean laundry.

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Hold her down, sisters!

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Oh, my God!

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What draws so many
young men to the priesthood,

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not so much nowadays,

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is this beautiful vision
of service.

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- Yeah.
- I mean, don't get me wrong,

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it is a beautiful vision,
but it needs to be more

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- than that.
- I know, you told me about this

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in class, remember?
I know all this already.

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I just wanna be sure this
comes from your heart of hearts,

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not from some idea
of how to live a good life

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because you don't know
what you want.

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Or... or you're compensating
for something.

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Or you're scared of life.

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There are plenty of ways
to live a good, meaningful life.

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I'm not scared of life.

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I've searched my heart,
and it says become a priest.

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That seems courageous to me.

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- I pray about it a lot.
- Okay, then.

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- Do you regret it?
- No.

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I don't, but... but it's tough.

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And this is really personal,
but what about chastity?

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- What about it?
- Don't you want to get a job,

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make some money,
meet the nice girl

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or guy?

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That'd be okay, too. I don't
know what you're into.

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I'm not into anything.
I'm taking a vow of chastity.

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Pancakes and sausage
with a side of syrup.

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At the very least, know thyself
before you jump into this.

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You got this
or you want me to do it?

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Go for it.

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Bless us, O Lord
and these thy gifts,

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which we are about
to receive from thy bounty.

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Through Christ, our Lord. Amen.

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So...

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what do you know about exorcism?

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Not much.

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I know that
it's still a holy rite,

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even though the church doesn't
really practice it anymore.

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Wrong.

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They do.
They just don't claim it.

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It's all very hush, hush.

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- Thanks for telling me.
- Even if,

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in our current age,
less people believe in God,

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it seems that belief
in the devil is rising.

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Maybe that means
he's winning, I don't know.

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It seems to me that people
are just in more pain.

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Good. Yes.

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They are.
And they don't know why.

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So they clutch at whatever
reason they can find.

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Look, I've performed exorcisms,

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five or six full ones,
with Father Rigazzi,

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who really knew the rite.

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But I never saw anything
that convinced me

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a demon was actually
inside someone.

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But I do know
the exorcisms worked.

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The power of faith.

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Maybe, people needed to get sick

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to some other worldly
or unimaginable degree

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and could only get well
when a priest forgave them,

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someone ordained by God.

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Hmm, maybe...

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some people just need
to walk through darkness

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before they even
get to the light, as...

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as cliché as that sounds.

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You don't believe in demons?

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I'm afraid the answer is no.

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<i>Our a way of life</i>

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<i>is no doubt hard.</i>

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<i>It demands rigor, discipline
and strength of spirit.</i>

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<i>But, most of all,
the purity of heart.</i>

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But sometimes we falter.

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Now, understand that I have
sought the Lord's guidance

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and deliberated hard
over this decision.

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Two days ago, I requested
help from the diocese.

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A priest with experience
in such matters,

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a true man of God
with the highest of reputations

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is now on his way to us.

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We will host him

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until he decides what
must be done with Sister Agnes.

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I'm told
he will arrive this evening.

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Now, it goes without saying
that I expect conduct

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of the highest standard
during this time.

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Remember who you are, sisters.

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We are not accustomed
to admitting men

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within our walls, even holy men.

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So let every action

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reflect the dignity

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of your solemn vow
before Almighty God.

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- May I ask a question, Mother?
- You may not.

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If you have concerns,
you may seek my counsel

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after our duties are finished.

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We will spend the rest
of the day cleaning

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before Father Donaghue arrives.

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Sister Mary,

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youngest in Christ
and lowliest among us,

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I'm told you were friends
with Sister Agnes?

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Yes.

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Then your hands

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must be idle least of all.

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You will clean the chapel
from floor to ceiling,

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removing every mote of dust.

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00:16:35,052 --> 00:16:38,555
It's likely Father Donaghue
will serve mass while he's here.

253
00:16:39,489 --> 00:16:40,958
Yes, Mother.

254
00:16:53,403 --> 00:16:55,505
Here, put this on.

255
00:16:58,876 --> 00:17:01,311
- Oh, I can't wear this.
- Why not?

256
00:17:02,312 --> 00:17:03,613
I'm not a priest.

257
00:17:03,815 --> 00:17:06,150
You said at lunch
your vows are all but taken.

258
00:17:06,416 --> 00:17:07,985
Yeah,
but I haven't taken them yet.

259
00:17:08,186 --> 00:17:10,855
This is gonna cause
problems in there.

260
00:17:13,024 --> 00:17:15,492
Look, sorry, Father Donaghue,
there's just no way.

261
00:17:16,961 --> 00:17:19,997
Suit yourself.
Don't say I didn't tell you.

262
00:17:34,544 --> 00:17:36,646
I saw Father Donaghue
give mass once

263
00:17:36,780 --> 00:17:38,415
before the sisterhood.

264
00:17:39,116 --> 00:17:40,985
It was inspiring.

265
00:17:41,718 --> 00:17:43,486
Who's that
supposed to be, his driver?

266
00:17:43,653 --> 00:17:45,022
Whoever he is, he's handsome.

267
00:17:45,156 --> 00:17:46,756
Sister, you need
\ to contain yourself.

268
00:17:46,891 --> 00:17:49,359
I'm sorry, but he looks
like a movie star.

269
00:17:49,693 --> 00:17:51,428
And Father Donaghue
isn't bad, either.

270
00:17:51,595 --> 00:17:53,396
- Sister Honey!
- What?

271
00:17:53,865 --> 00:17:56,600
We can't even talk about it?
I don't see the problem.

272
00:17:56,733 --> 00:17:58,735
It's not like I'm going
to go up to him and say,

273
00:17:58,870 --> 00:18:00,470
- "Oh, Father, I..."
- Sister!

274
00:18:00,704 --> 00:18:02,405
The younger one
is wearing all black,

275
00:18:02,539 --> 00:18:03,707
but no priest color.

276
00:18:03,841 --> 00:18:05,508
He's probably a deacon.

277
00:18:32,669 --> 00:18:34,272
I must say, I wish I was told

278
00:18:34,404 --> 00:18:36,773
your young companion
would be accompanying you.

279
00:18:36,908 --> 00:18:40,344
I find it inappropriate.
Almost insulting.

280
00:18:40,510 --> 00:18:43,180
I'm sorry,
Mother Superior, I assumed

281
00:18:43,314 --> 00:18:45,349
- the vicar general...
- Of course, Father Benoit

282
00:18:45,515 --> 00:18:47,417
visits us for mass
three times a week,

283
00:18:47,550 --> 00:18:49,753
but he's 77 years old.

284
00:18:50,087 --> 00:18:53,423
It's unusual enough to have
a priest stay overnight,

285
00:18:53,556 --> 00:18:55,092
let alone this young man.

286
00:18:55,259 --> 00:18:57,161
Again, my apologies Mother.

287
00:18:57,527 --> 00:18:59,830
But he is a very pious
young man.

288
00:19:00,597 --> 00:19:01,933
And I assure you,

289
00:19:02,066 --> 00:19:05,202
he is absolutely essential
for my work here.

290
00:19:05,870 --> 00:19:07,570
Then I assume
we should look at this

291
00:19:07,704 --> 00:19:09,807
as a test of faith
for all of us.

292
00:19:10,041 --> 00:19:14,946
Benjamin, Mother Superior
is concerned...

293
00:19:15,712 --> 00:19:16,981
How should I put this,

294
00:19:17,315 --> 00:19:19,749
about having a young
unordained rooster

295
00:19:19,884 --> 00:19:21,518
loose in the hen house.

296
00:19:21,651 --> 00:19:23,586
Father, there's no need
to be crude.

297
00:19:28,426 --> 00:19:30,928
Mother Superior, I'm taking
my vows later this year.

298
00:19:31,162 --> 00:19:34,432
I absolutely assure you, with
Christ himself as my witness,

299
00:19:34,631 --> 00:19:36,499
I will remain a model
of propriety

300
00:19:36,633 --> 00:19:38,903
as long as you are kind
enough to host me.

301
00:19:41,105 --> 00:19:45,176
Well, I'll expect so,
and we'll insist upon it.

302
00:19:53,985 --> 00:19:56,686
This is Sister Ruth.
This is Sister Honey.

303
00:19:57,088 --> 00:19:58,889
- Thank you, Mother.
- Honey?

304
00:19:59,723 --> 00:20:01,558
I... I believe it's Proverbs.

305
00:20:02,093 --> 00:20:05,628
"My son, eat the honey,
for it is good.

306
00:20:05,997 --> 00:20:08,299
And the drippings
of the honeycomb

307
00:20:08,432 --> 00:20:09,766
are sweet to the taste."

308
00:20:09,900 --> 00:20:12,470
Oh, my God, stop.

309
00:20:12,669 --> 00:20:14,637
Sister, that's enough.
Leave them be.

310
00:20:15,139 --> 00:20:17,041
Have Sister Mary
take their dirty things

311
00:20:17,174 --> 00:20:19,509
- when they're through.
- Yes, Mother.

312
00:20:21,979 --> 00:20:25,850
And afterward, we should do
what we came here to do.

313
00:20:26,350 --> 00:20:27,617
The sooner, the better.

314
00:20:27,818 --> 00:20:30,187
Mother, forgive me,
one last thing.

315
00:20:30,821 --> 00:20:33,523
Do you happen to have any wine?

316
00:20:34,724 --> 00:20:36,327
"And they said of him,

317
00:20:36,861 --> 00:20:40,364
'He casts out devils
by the power of the devil.'"

318
00:20:40,697 --> 00:20:41,999
Careful, Mother.

319
00:20:42,400 --> 00:20:46,603
In that passage, the Pharisees
are talking about our Lord.

320
00:20:47,171 --> 00:20:48,239
Humph.

321
00:20:50,975 --> 00:20:52,209
I thought you said
you were interested

322
00:20:52,343 --> 00:20:53,511
in this going smoothly.

323
00:20:54,211 --> 00:20:56,579
We'll be in and out
of here anyway.

324
00:20:57,348 --> 00:21:00,484
The inflicted sister probably
just needs some priest

325
00:21:00,617 --> 00:21:03,087
to come and say the magic words.

326
00:21:04,021 --> 00:21:06,790
Don't worry. I've seen this
more than a few times.

327
00:21:30,747 --> 00:21:32,516
What?

328
00:21:32,749 --> 00:21:34,285
It's Father Donaghue.

329
00:21:36,253 --> 00:21:38,389
It's not appropriate
for you to be here.

330
00:21:39,123 --> 00:21:40,623
But I imagine you knew that.

331
00:21:40,757 --> 00:21:42,026
Forgive me, Mother.

332
00:21:42,226 --> 00:21:45,229
I wanted to apologize
for my behavior.

333
00:21:46,530 --> 00:21:47,932
It was a long trip today.

334
00:21:48,132 --> 00:21:50,901
And I'm not accustomed
to your way of life out here.

335
00:21:51,435 --> 00:21:54,371
I wasn't thinking,
and I should've known better.

336
00:21:54,505 --> 00:21:55,772
You should have.

337
00:21:56,107 --> 00:21:59,243
I'm afraid I'm more used
to dealing with lay people.

338
00:22:00,044 --> 00:22:02,880
Sometimes I joke with them.

339
00:22:03,514 --> 00:22:05,416
It puts them at ease.

340
00:22:06,417 --> 00:22:10,221
But here I should conduct
myself with more respect,

341
00:22:10,421 --> 00:22:12,823
especially toward you.

342
00:22:14,191 --> 00:22:18,095
Well, then I must forgive you.

343
00:22:20,431 --> 00:22:21,832
My temper is...

344
00:22:22,732 --> 00:22:25,002
It's been quite
a stressful time.

345
00:22:26,137 --> 00:22:29,273
May the Holy Spirit
guide us both.

346
00:22:31,308 --> 00:22:36,247
Now, shall we go see
about your poor lost lamb?

347
00:23:29,133 --> 00:23:31,802
Has she spoken at all
in any ancient languages?

348
00:23:31,969 --> 00:23:33,837
- No, Father.
- Has she said anything

349
00:23:33,971 --> 00:23:36,540
about any of you
she couldn't possibly know?

350
00:23:36,706 --> 00:23:39,043
Secrets or private details,

351
00:23:39,310 --> 00:23:41,778
particularly those things
from before you took your vows?

352
00:23:41,946 --> 00:23:43,247
Of course not.

353
00:23:44,448 --> 00:23:45,950
Likely all will be well.

354
00:23:46,850 --> 00:23:48,751
Follow my lead as we discussed.

355
00:23:49,453 --> 00:23:52,489
If you become afraid,
you can't let it show.

356
00:23:53,123 --> 00:23:56,327
You have to be strong,
but fill your hearts with love.

357
00:23:57,361 --> 00:24:00,998
If you see anything strange,
stick to the script.

358
00:24:04,435 --> 00:24:06,103
You tied her up?
You treat someone

359
00:24:06,237 --> 00:24:07,938
like an animal,
they'll act like an animal.

360
00:24:08,072 --> 00:24:09,907
The poor girl
injured herself.

361
00:24:10,174 --> 00:24:11,942
Oh. What's her name?

362
00:24:12,176 --> 00:24:14,511
Agnes.
Sister Agnes.

363
00:24:15,145 --> 00:24:18,882
Sister Agnes, can you hear me?

364
00:24:19,717 --> 00:24:21,318
Can you feel me near you?

365
00:24:25,022 --> 00:24:27,925
This looks bad,
but maybe not that bad.

366
00:24:28,559 --> 00:24:30,394
Benjamin, the holy water.

367
00:24:42,806 --> 00:24:44,541
Well, let's begin.

368
00:24:48,679 --> 00:24:51,915
- Lord, have mercy.
- Lord, have mercy.

369
00:24:52,782 --> 00:24:53,917
Christ, have mercy.

370
00:24:54,218 --> 00:24:56,920
- Christ, have mercy.
- Fuck you.

371
00:24:59,456 --> 00:25:00,658
Lord, have mercy.

372
00:25:00,824 --> 00:25:02,326
Lord, have mercy.

373
00:25:02,459 --> 00:25:03,927
Christ, have mercy.

374
00:25:04,194 --> 00:25:06,096
Christ, have mercy.

375
00:25:06,796 --> 00:25:08,332
Begone, you.

376
00:25:09,066 --> 00:25:11,201
Begone, seducer.

377
00:25:12,036 --> 00:25:14,104
Your place is in solitude.

378
00:25:14,772 --> 00:25:17,875
Your abode
is the nest of serpents.

379
00:25:18,008 --> 00:25:20,811
Get down and crawl with them.

380
00:25:21,779 --> 00:25:27,484
You might delude man,
but God cannot be mocked.

381
00:25:27,618 --> 00:25:29,887
Go to hell, cocksucker.

382
00:25:34,858 --> 00:25:37,461
It is He who cast you out,

383
00:25:38,195 --> 00:25:41,498
from whose sight
nothing is hidden.

384
00:25:41,732 --> 00:25:44,501
It is He who repels you,

385
00:25:45,402 --> 00:25:49,707
to whose might
all things are subject.

386
00:25:50,140 --> 00:25:52,776
Many things. Many things.

387
00:25:53,010 --> 00:25:56,213
Is He who expels you.

388
00:25:56,880 --> 00:26:00,217
He who has everlasting fire.

389
00:26:09,927 --> 00:26:14,465
In the name of the Father
and the Son and the Holy Spirit.

390
00:26:14,598 --> 00:26:15,966
Amen.

391
00:26:19,336 --> 00:26:23,640
Oh,
dear sweet sister.

392
00:26:26,210 --> 00:26:27,911
That was dramatic.

393
00:26:30,714 --> 00:26:31,915
It has to be.

394
00:26:34,084 --> 00:26:35,519
It's an exorcism,

395
00:26:36,821 --> 00:26:39,623
one of the most elaborate
song and dance acts

396
00:26:39,757 --> 00:26:41,024
the world has ever seen.

397
00:26:41,225 --> 00:26:42,926
So, that was all in her head?

398
00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:44,695
More or less.

399
00:26:45,329 --> 00:26:48,867
Look, the Carmelites
here in Santa Teresa

400
00:26:48,999 --> 00:26:52,636
belong to an entirely
enclosed order.

401
00:26:53,137 --> 00:26:54,271
In some ways,

402
00:26:54,538 --> 00:26:56,273
they're more a relic
of the old church

403
00:26:56,407 --> 00:26:58,475
than even exorcism itself.

404
00:26:59,743 --> 00:27:01,445
- Yeah, but if they...
- That's enough heaven

405
00:27:01,578 --> 00:27:04,615
and hell for one night,
Benjamin, let's get some sleep.

406
00:27:05,749 --> 00:27:07,117
I'm knackered.

407
00:27:19,263 --> 00:27:21,031
<i>God sees the truth...</i>

408
00:27:22,533 --> 00:27:24,001
but waits.

409
00:27:25,202 --> 00:27:27,671
Over 100 years ago,
Leo Tolstoy

410
00:27:28,038 --> 00:27:30,107
wrote a story with that title.

411
00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:33,076
And it has always stuck with me.

412
00:27:33,444 --> 00:27:37,916
I find that so many of us
who devote our lives to God

413
00:27:38,115 --> 00:27:39,483
through our vows,

414
00:27:40,184 --> 00:27:43,387
spend a great deal
of time waiting.

415
00:27:44,288 --> 00:27:46,256
Waiting on God.

416
00:27:46,825 --> 00:27:48,625
It can be so easy

417
00:27:48,792 --> 00:27:53,997
to fall into despair
in this fallen world.

418
00:27:54,431 --> 00:27:58,569
How could we know this gift,

419
00:27:59,002 --> 00:28:01,605
the glory of salvation,

420
00:28:01,940 --> 00:28:05,309
of finding our way to Christ,

421
00:28:06,143 --> 00:28:09,413
if at first we did not wander?

422
00:28:10,949 --> 00:28:14,785
How could we ever
truly appreciate

423
00:28:15,219 --> 00:28:18,989
the miracle of redemption
and grace

424
00:28:19,456 --> 00:28:23,594
if we'd not suffered tribulation
and come to darkness?

425
00:28:24,695 --> 00:28:28,532
I haven't met all of you,
but the Mother Superior

426
00:28:28,765 --> 00:28:32,369
tells me that you are a pious
and devoted bunch.

427
00:28:32,904 --> 00:28:36,473
And I am truly grateful
for the hospitality

428
00:28:36,607 --> 00:28:39,209
that you've shown us
during this time of trial,

429
00:28:39,343 --> 00:28:43,815
to me and my strapping
young buck of a companion.

430
00:28:43,948 --> 00:28:45,850
Isn't he handsome, ladies?

431
00:28:46,550 --> 00:28:48,252
But there is one among you

432
00:28:48,987 --> 00:28:52,322
who I am most pleased
to have become acquainted with,

433
00:28:53,123 --> 00:28:58,161
one who has suffered much,
walking through a darkness

434
00:28:58,295 --> 00:29:01,565
that most of us
cannot even imagine,

435
00:29:02,332 --> 00:29:07,738
one who has endured
a true test of faith.

436
00:29:08,639 --> 00:29:11,475
God sees the truth, but waits.

437
00:29:12,209 --> 00:29:17,080
And he can always see a heart
that is fundamentally pure,

438
00:29:17,815 --> 00:29:20,651
as I know hers is.

439
00:29:21,886 --> 00:29:23,487
Okay, Sister Honey.

440
00:29:46,143 --> 00:29:47,678
What say you, dear sister,

441
00:29:48,445 --> 00:29:51,615
are you ready to join us
in the Lord's sacrament?

442
00:29:56,219 --> 00:29:57,421
We must be patient.

443
00:29:57,822 --> 00:30:00,290
Understandably, our dear sister
will take some time

444
00:30:00,424 --> 00:30:02,060
to return to her former self.

445
00:30:02,693 --> 00:30:06,396
Well, aren't you just
the sweetest old liar?

446
00:30:06,931 --> 00:30:08,398
What?

447
00:30:34,391 --> 00:30:37,127
Father Frank,
he touched my wee-wee.

448
00:30:37,327 --> 00:30:40,731
Father Frank,
he touched my wee-wee!

449
00:30:53,510 --> 00:30:55,079
So, should we call the diocese?

450
00:30:55,278 --> 00:30:56,613
Absolutely not.

451
00:30:56,914 --> 00:30:58,950
- Well, the rite didn't work.
- You've made this worse

452
00:30:59,083 --> 00:31:00,684
- by your pride.
- Obviously,

453
00:31:00,818 --> 00:31:04,254
that was not my doing, Mother.
It ambushed us.

454
00:31:04,488 --> 00:31:05,789
So, it's an it now?

455
00:31:06,590 --> 00:31:08,993
What she said about the child,
how could she know that?

456
00:31:09,359 --> 00:31:11,194
I thought everybody
knew about that.

457
00:31:11,528 --> 00:31:14,431
I have never seen anything
like this before in my life.

458
00:31:14,598 --> 00:31:16,767
I thought you were
supposed to be the expert.

459
00:31:17,567 --> 00:31:19,770
They were setting me up to fail.

460
00:31:20,237 --> 00:31:21,906
- Sister!
- I'm sorry, Mother.

461
00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:23,808
We have to call the diocese.

462
00:31:23,941 --> 00:31:28,278
You don't want that kind
of attention here right now.

463
00:31:28,980 --> 00:31:32,449
And it's not needed. I know
someone who can help us.

464
00:31:32,582 --> 00:31:35,752
- We served in Rome.
- You mean a priest?

465
00:31:37,788 --> 00:31:38,956
Kind of.

466
00:31:43,627 --> 00:31:45,796
Cross Talk with Guy Chesterton.

467
00:31:47,698 --> 00:31:49,299
No matter
your religious beliefs,

468
00:31:49,433 --> 00:31:51,401
you're probably familiar
with the old adage

469
00:31:51,535 --> 00:31:53,370
giving the devil his due.

470
00:31:53,670 --> 00:31:54,906
Well, our guest this evening

471
00:31:55,039 --> 00:31:57,141
can be said to have done
all that and more,

472
00:31:57,407 --> 00:31:59,342
tracing an unlikely career path

473
00:31:59,476 --> 00:32:01,645
through decades
of macabre service,

474
00:32:01,778 --> 00:32:05,248
casting out alleged demons,
possibly saving souls,

475
00:32:05,382 --> 00:32:07,952
and becoming a household
name in the process.

476
00:32:08,351 --> 00:32:10,554
We're pleased to welcome
Father Henry Black

477
00:32:10,687 --> 00:32:12,824
in the studio with us
this evening.

478
00:32:13,757 --> 00:32:16,460
- Welcome, Father Black.
- Well, thank you, Guy,

479
00:32:16,626 --> 00:32:18,963
that was quite an introduction.
It's good to be with you.

480
00:32:19,097 --> 00:32:21,331
Now, your methods are said
to be quite different

481
00:32:21,465 --> 00:32:22,699
from the Catholic church,

482
00:32:23,034 --> 00:32:25,368
not to mention from the way
we've seen exorcism

483
00:32:25,502 --> 00:32:27,939
represented in the media
and on films.

484
00:32:28,538 --> 00:32:29,841
It's true
you were ex-communicated

485
00:32:29,974 --> 00:32:31,909
from the Church
over 17 years ago.

486
00:32:32,043 --> 00:32:33,878
Never looked back. Hmm.

487
00:32:34,678 --> 00:32:38,182
Now, I'm sure they miss me just
about as much as I miss them.

488
00:32:38,415 --> 00:32:39,851
Let's go back
to the beginning.

489
00:32:40,051 --> 00:32:43,054
When did you learn you had
a talent for this kind of thing?

490
00:32:43,587 --> 00:32:44,889
When I was a child,

491
00:32:45,223 --> 00:32:49,392
my little sister was possessed
by a demon named Bune.

492
00:32:49,961 --> 00:32:53,430
You were involved in exorcisms
from a very early age.

493
00:32:53,630 --> 00:32:57,434
No, Bune,
he was a stubborn demon.

494
00:32:58,502 --> 00:32:59,871
He wouldn't get out.

495
00:33:00,737 --> 00:33:04,307
So, you're saying
a demon named Bune

496
00:33:04,474 --> 00:33:07,044
infiltrated your sister's body
years ago,

497
00:33:07,178 --> 00:33:10,047
and to this day
resides in your family's home?

498
00:33:10,248 --> 00:33:12,582
- Correct.
- And all this can be verified?

499
00:33:12,716 --> 00:33:14,819
It took some getting used to.
But growing up,

500
00:33:14,952 --> 00:33:18,990
I was forced to adapt
to the ways of the demon Bune.

501
00:33:19,790 --> 00:33:23,961
I grew accustomed to interacting
with him on a daily basis.

502
00:33:24,694 --> 00:33:26,530
So, by the time I got my collar,

503
00:33:26,763 --> 00:33:28,900
I already had all
the know-how I needed

504
00:33:29,033 --> 00:33:31,468
to exorcise anything
you put in front of me.

505
00:33:31,601 --> 00:33:33,637
And yet,
with all your experience,

506
00:33:33,770 --> 00:33:37,307
you were never able
to exercise the demon Bune

507
00:33:37,440 --> 00:33:40,812
- from your sister.
- It's complicated, Guy.

508
00:33:41,545 --> 00:33:44,381
I mean, the family,
at this point,

509
00:33:44,514 --> 00:33:47,717
had become so familiar
with Bune.

510
00:33:48,152 --> 00:33:51,421
He still lives with my family,
still eats at the table,

511
00:33:51,621 --> 00:33:54,992
still sleeps in what used
to be my sister's room,

512
00:33:55,559 --> 00:33:57,527
family vacations and whatnot.

513
00:33:57,661 --> 00:33:58,963
His favorite color is green.

514
00:33:59,096 --> 00:34:01,899
His favorite dessert
is lemon chiffon cake.

515
00:34:02,033 --> 00:34:03,901
What do you say
to those who claim

516
00:34:04,035 --> 00:34:07,337
you're simply exploiting
the families you visit

517
00:34:07,504 --> 00:34:09,773
and capitalizing
on the mental illness

518
00:34:09,907 --> 00:34:11,641
of the so-called possessed?

519
00:34:11,976 --> 00:34:15,512
Let me put it
to you this way, Guy.

520
00:34:16,881 --> 00:34:19,016
I didn't choose
this line of work.

521
00:34:19,616 --> 00:34:20,885
It chose me.

522
00:34:21,518 --> 00:34:23,453
God chose me.

523
00:34:24,554 --> 00:34:28,625
He put me on a path of darkness.
He put a demon

524
00:34:28,893 --> 00:34:32,897
by my side and said,
"Be not afraid, my son."

525
00:34:36,167 --> 00:34:37,367
We'll be right back.

526
00:34:50,882 --> 00:34:52,817
She's given herself
over to the devil.

527
00:34:52,950 --> 00:34:54,451
She needs medical attention.

528
00:34:54,584 --> 00:34:57,387
Sisters, you forget yourselves.

529
00:34:57,654 --> 00:34:59,190
As if we don't have
enough to do.

530
00:34:59,556 --> 00:35:01,325
Sister Honey,
find out if Father Donaghue

531
00:35:01,458 --> 00:35:04,394
has stopped bleeding. If so,
clean and dress his wound.

532
00:35:04,527 --> 00:35:05,695
Yes, Mother Superior.

533
00:35:05,830 --> 00:35:07,564
You two,
finish cleaning the filth

534
00:35:07,697 --> 00:35:09,799
that Agnes has trailed
from the chapel. Go.

535
00:35:09,934 --> 00:35:11,768
You, prepare a light meal

536
00:35:11,903 --> 00:35:13,170
to be served to the rest
of the sisters

537
00:35:13,304 --> 00:35:15,639
in half an hour.
We will gather our strength,

538
00:35:15,772 --> 00:35:17,942
after which
we will retire to our rooms

539
00:35:18,075 --> 00:35:19,643
and we will pray
for the rest of the evening.

540
00:35:19,776 --> 00:35:21,913
- Do I make myself clear?
- Yes, Mother.

541
00:35:22,980 --> 00:35:26,117
Sister Mary, Sister Ruth,
she's quiet, yes?

542
00:35:26,384 --> 00:35:29,619
She hasn't stirred since
the straps or the holy water.

543
00:35:31,055 --> 00:35:32,023
Then go.

544
00:35:32,722 --> 00:35:33,991
Sister Mary,

545
00:35:34,691 --> 00:35:36,526
since you two
were thick as thieves,

546
00:35:36,827 --> 00:35:38,262
you will attend Agnes,

547
00:35:38,863 --> 00:35:40,430
or whatever holy
remains in her.

548
00:35:40,563 --> 00:35:42,133
We might still call her
by that name.

549
00:35:42,266 --> 00:35:43,600
I can't see her.

550
00:35:46,670 --> 00:35:48,873
You're frightened, child?

551
00:35:50,074 --> 00:35:53,144
You don't have the luxury
to be frightened.

552
00:35:55,578 --> 00:35:58,215
- Yes, Mother.
- And mind,

553
00:35:59,749 --> 00:36:03,687
if she speaks evil,
don't listen.

554
00:36:12,830 --> 00:36:14,698
Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.

555
00:36:14,832 --> 00:36:16,100
Blessed art thou among women.

556
00:36:16,233 --> 00:36:17,835
And blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.

557
00:36:17,969 --> 00:36:19,602
Holy Mary, Mother of
God, pray for us sinners

558
00:36:19,736 --> 00:36:21,105
now and at the hour
of our death, amen.

559
00:36:21,238 --> 00:36:22,840
Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.

560
00:36:22,974 --> 00:36:24,241
Blessed art thou among women.

561
00:36:24,375 --> 00:36:25,943
And blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.

562
00:36:26,077 --> 00:36:27,510
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners

563
00:36:27,644 --> 00:36:28,980
now and at the hour
f our death, amen.

564
00:36:29,113 --> 00:36:30,815
Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.

565
00:36:30,948 --> 00:36:32,283
Blessed art thou among women.
And blessed is the fruit

566
00:36:32,416 --> 00:36:33,985
- of thy womb, Jesus.
- Mary!

567
00:36:34,251 --> 00:36:35,853
- Holy Mary, Mother of God...
- Go home!

568
00:36:36,120 --> 00:36:37,520
...pray for us sinners, now and
at the hour of our death, amen.

569
00:36:37,721 --> 00:36:39,290
- Hail Mary full of grace...
- Praise Jesus!

570
00:36:39,457 --> 00:36:40,925
Blessed is the fruit of thy...

571
00:36:41,058 --> 00:36:42,525
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us

572
00:36:42,659 --> 00:36:44,028
now and at the hour
of our death, amen.

573
00:36:44,161 --> 00:36:45,997
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
please pray for me.

574
00:37:04,081 --> 00:37:05,515
Hey, Mary.

575
00:37:08,819 --> 00:37:09,954
Hey, Agnes.

576
00:37:26,837 --> 00:37:28,738
Are you afraid of me?

577
00:37:32,309 --> 00:37:34,544
You bit off
Father Donaghue's nose.

578
00:37:36,013 --> 00:37:37,948
Well, he had a nice nose.

579
00:37:54,999 --> 00:37:59,336
I wish I'd said goodbye
to everyone before I left,

580
00:38:01,372 --> 00:38:03,074
told them how much I loved them.

581
00:38:06,243 --> 00:38:08,778
But I guess
that doesn't matter now.

582
00:38:12,817 --> 00:38:14,717
Aren't you uncomfortable?

583
00:38:16,921 --> 00:38:18,289
What do you mean?

584
00:38:19,656 --> 00:38:21,624
Come on, take that shit off.

585
00:38:45,049 --> 00:38:46,716
There, isn't that better?

586
00:38:52,123 --> 00:38:53,958
You and I have never
really been honest

587
00:38:54,091 --> 00:38:55,692
with each other, have we?

588
00:38:59,597 --> 00:39:00,898
You lost someone.

589
00:39:02,600 --> 00:39:05,735
- Yeah.
- I lost someone, too.

590
00:39:06,703 --> 00:39:08,239
The love of my life.

591
00:39:09,706 --> 00:39:11,175
He was my teacher.

592
00:39:13,144 --> 00:39:16,247
He could make me laugh
like no one else could.

593
00:39:17,915 --> 00:39:21,152
But I was stupid and I lost him.

594
00:39:23,521 --> 00:39:24,855
Paul Satchimo.

595
00:39:27,690 --> 00:39:29,126
You loved him?

596
00:39:29,894 --> 00:39:31,728
And he loved me.

597
00:39:33,998 --> 00:39:35,665
You lost your son.

598
00:39:38,169 --> 00:39:40,070
The only person I ever loved.

599
00:39:42,606 --> 00:39:44,842
You have to bury the dead, Mary.

600
00:40:02,393 --> 00:40:03,928
I'll always be with you.

601
00:40:12,036 --> 00:40:14,505
I beseech you
now for guidance, Lord,

602
00:40:14,838 --> 00:40:16,739
you whose righteousness
has always breathed

603
00:40:16,874 --> 00:40:19,643
through this convent
like the sweetest song.

604
00:40:20,277 --> 00:40:22,680
How is this wretchedness
come to pass upon us?

605
00:40:23,080 --> 00:40:25,015
Is my service
not pleasing to you?

606
00:40:25,182 --> 00:40:26,550
What?

607
00:40:27,351 --> 00:40:29,620
- What's it?
- I'm sorry, Mother.

608
00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:31,589
For a great many things,
I'm sure.

609
00:40:31,721 --> 00:40:33,157
I think you should go see Agnes.

610
00:40:33,290 --> 00:40:35,092
What are you talking about?
The devil is in her.

611
00:40:35,226 --> 00:40:36,660
Has it gotten into you as well?

612
00:40:36,793 --> 00:40:40,364
I don't think it's the devil.
She was kind to me.

613
00:40:40,598 --> 00:40:42,666
The devil leads with kindness.

614
00:40:42,799 --> 00:40:44,335
And why are you not presentable?

615
00:40:44,468 --> 00:40:47,404
There are men
in this house, you slut. Leave!

616
00:41:08,659 --> 00:41:10,394
Do you want me to pray with you?

617
00:41:11,161 --> 00:41:15,966
No, Benjamin, just
leave me to the wolves.

618
00:41:17,835 --> 00:41:22,339
Maybe a priest without a nose
won't seem so strange in...

619
00:41:23,474 --> 00:41:26,310
Vietnam or Croatia
or wherever the hell it is

620
00:41:26,443 --> 00:41:29,380
- they're gonna be sending me.
- That's it, think positive.

621
00:41:29,713 --> 00:41:34,018
I am thinking positive.
I'm positively fucked.

622
00:41:36,453 --> 00:41:39,089
Yeah.

623
00:41:40,524 --> 00:41:44,028
Father Black
will be here in the morning.

624
00:41:45,896 --> 00:41:47,831
Well,
that should be interesting.

625
00:41:49,199 --> 00:41:51,101
I am fucked.

626
00:41:52,936 --> 00:41:56,974
I am fucked,
I'm fucked, I'm fucked.

627
00:42:37,414 --> 00:42:38,482
Frank.

628
00:42:42,186 --> 00:42:43,554
Good to see you again.

629
00:42:43,787 --> 00:42:44,955
So what happened there, Frank,

630
00:42:45,089 --> 00:42:46,390
somebody spite your face
a little bit?

631
00:42:46,523 --> 00:42:49,026
Yeah, something like that.
Father Black,

632
00:42:49,326 --> 00:42:51,562
I would like to introduce you
to Benjamin,

633
00:42:51,695 --> 00:42:53,364
one of my best students.

634
00:42:54,064 --> 00:42:57,134
Father Henry Black
and his lovely assistant.

635
00:42:57,267 --> 00:42:58,936
I'm sorry,
I didn't catch your name.

636
00:42:59,503 --> 00:43:01,638
- I didn't disclose.
- Right.

637
00:43:01,905 --> 00:43:03,440
Pleased to make
your acquaintance.

638
00:43:03,640 --> 00:43:05,409
You should be
ashamed of yourself.

639
00:43:07,077 --> 00:43:08,445
- Who's this guy?
- I'm sorry.

640
00:43:08,579 --> 00:43:10,314
We've been under
considerable stress

641
00:43:10,447 --> 00:43:12,049
in our current predicament.

642
00:43:12,182 --> 00:43:14,017
- Benjamin, if you...
- Boy's right.

643
00:43:15,586 --> 00:43:18,823
This is not the sort of company
I'd ever allow in this convent,

644
00:43:18,989 --> 00:43:20,157
no matter what the circumstance.

645
00:43:20,290 --> 00:43:22,393
You absolutely
cannot smoke here.

646
00:43:23,227 --> 00:43:27,064
You know, I can sense
when I'm not welcome, Frank.

647
00:43:27,197 --> 00:43:28,532
I appreciate the call

648
00:43:28,665 --> 00:43:30,134
- after so long, but...
- No, no, no, no.

649
00:43:30,267 --> 00:43:32,035
- Come on, let's...
- Please, Henry, please.

650
00:43:32,269 --> 00:43:37,107
The fact is that we are
in dire need of your expertise.

651
00:43:37,307 --> 00:43:38,843
That's probably true.

652
00:43:39,643 --> 00:43:45,249
Mother, you and the sisters
in your cherished convent

653
00:43:45,382 --> 00:43:47,584
have been the most
gracious hosts.

654
00:43:47,718 --> 00:43:49,052
But now I have a request.

655
00:43:49,319 --> 00:43:51,121
Respectfully,
would you give it a rest?

656
00:43:51,255 --> 00:43:53,524
- Excuse me?
- Forgive us, Mother.

657
00:43:53,657 --> 00:43:56,260
- This is highly inappropriate.
- At this juncture,

658
00:43:56,393 --> 00:43:58,863
I don't see that you
have any other choice.

659
00:43:59,096 --> 00:44:02,332
Please escort us to Agnes

660
00:44:02,599 --> 00:44:05,569
so that we can end
this dance once and for all.

661
00:44:05,702 --> 00:44:06,937
I most certainly will not.

662
00:44:07,104 --> 00:44:10,407
Very well, then.
If you will follow me,

663
00:44:10,574 --> 00:44:13,110
I would love to introduce you
to the poor girl,

664
00:44:13,277 --> 00:44:15,646
and you can commence your work.

665
00:44:17,781 --> 00:44:20,651
Oh, what the hell?
I drove this far.

666
00:44:23,620 --> 00:44:26,290
I'll be notifying the bishop.

667
00:44:31,161 --> 00:44:32,463
I am curious.

668
00:44:39,736 --> 00:44:41,305
Hello there, Agnes.

669
00:44:45,075 --> 00:44:47,311
Wow, shows some good instinct

670
00:44:48,378 --> 00:44:50,815
because I'm not your friend.

671
00:44:51,782 --> 00:44:54,351
I'm not your friend at all.
No, ma'am.

672
00:44:57,054 --> 00:44:58,455
Let me ask you something.

673
00:44:59,590 --> 00:45:01,860
Do you feel like
you're welcome here?

674
00:45:02,125 --> 00:45:04,027
Is that what's going on?

675
00:45:04,461 --> 00:45:09,032
You feel like you're welcome?
Because I've looked around.

676
00:45:10,133 --> 00:45:11,535
You're in a convent.

677
00:45:12,336 --> 00:45:15,072
So... so, you're not
welcome here.

678
00:45:15,739 --> 00:45:18,742
Which means that you and I,
well, we're gonna have to...

679
00:45:19,443 --> 00:45:21,345
have this little talk,
aren't we?

680
00:45:22,246 --> 00:45:23,680
You're a disgrace.

681
00:45:23,915 --> 00:45:26,283
Well, you can sweet
talk me all you want,

682
00:45:26,416 --> 00:45:28,085
but I'm not scared.

683
00:45:28,218 --> 00:45:29,720
Fuck you, cocksucker.

684
00:45:30,020 --> 00:45:33,323
Oh! Yeah, you can't bruise name
with your words, either.

685
00:45:33,457 --> 00:45:35,325
I've been to all nine
levels of hell and back.

686
00:45:35,459 --> 00:45:36,961
Hell wouldn't have you.

687
00:45:37,528 --> 00:45:40,230
Well, you see, that's...
that's where you're wrong

688
00:45:40,364 --> 00:45:44,768
because I have escorted
several there myself.

689
00:45:55,279 --> 00:45:57,347
I think
I'm starting to like you.

690
00:45:58,115 --> 00:46:00,083
Well that's, that's sweet.

691
00:46:01,351 --> 00:46:02,921
Let me tell you something.

692
00:46:03,153 --> 00:46:05,055
Come here,
let me tell you something.

693
00:46:06,290 --> 00:46:09,459
I love you.

694
00:46:10,895 --> 00:46:12,529
You love me?

695
00:46:12,931 --> 00:46:15,566
I do. I love you.

696
00:46:17,134 --> 00:46:18,903
And you know who else loves you?

697
00:46:19,469 --> 00:46:20,771
No.

698
00:46:21,738 --> 00:46:24,741
- Jesus Christ! Get out, demon!
- Stop, no! No!

699
00:46:24,876 --> 00:46:27,377
- Time to go! You hear me?
- No, stop, please!

700
00:46:27,511 --> 00:46:29,079
- The power of Jesus Christ...
- I'm sorry!

701
00:46:29,212 --> 00:46:30,949
- ...our true Lord and Savior...
- No, no!

702
00:46:31,081 --> 00:46:32,282
- ...compels you!
- No! No!

703
00:46:32,416 --> 00:46:33,818
- And I say begone!
- I'm so sorry!

704
00:46:34,052 --> 00:46:37,521
- Begone!
- I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

705
00:46:37,654 --> 00:46:39,523
- This has to stop now!
- Just wait!

706
00:46:39,656 --> 00:46:43,861
Child of God, for it
is He who commands you!

707
00:46:43,995 --> 00:46:47,664
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry!

708
00:46:47,798 --> 00:46:49,700
What just happened?
What just happened?

709
00:46:49,867 --> 00:46:53,270
It's all right, my child.
You're safe now.

710
00:46:53,537 --> 00:46:58,342
I don't understand, I...
I could... I could see, like,

711
00:46:59,343 --> 00:47:00,812
I could feel.

712
00:47:02,713 --> 00:47:04,816
It was like, it was like
I was another person.

713
00:47:04,949 --> 00:47:06,316
Yeah, well, you were,

714
00:47:06,483 --> 00:47:10,120
you were in the grips
of a creature most foul.

715
00:47:11,089 --> 00:47:12,756
But it's okay, you're safe now.

716
00:47:13,323 --> 00:47:14,625
You see, folks,

717
00:47:15,425 --> 00:47:17,561
that's the way
the cookie crumbles.

718
00:47:18,328 --> 00:47:21,531
You see, if you'd have let me
have my camera crew in here,

719
00:47:21,665 --> 00:47:23,634
we could've documented
some history.

720
00:47:23,767 --> 00:47:26,670
- Nice work, Henry.
- Thank you, Frank.

721
00:47:26,804 --> 00:47:28,705
Father Black, thank you.

722
00:47:28,906 --> 00:47:31,541
No, there's no need
to thank me.

723
00:47:31,976 --> 00:47:33,310
No, I want to thank you.

724
00:47:33,443 --> 00:47:35,479
But I have to tell you,
I'm afraid.

725
00:47:35,712 --> 00:47:38,315
Well, there's nothing
to be afraid of.

726
00:47:39,182 --> 00:47:40,617
Maybe not for me.

727
00:47:41,218 --> 00:47:45,422
- Well, what do you mean?
- It's not me I'm afraid for.

728
00:47:47,324 --> 00:47:49,626
I don't understand.

729
00:47:51,929 --> 00:47:52,930
It's you.

730
00:47:57,567 --> 00:48:01,338
Oh, goddammit, son of a bitch!

731
00:48:01,672 --> 00:48:04,541
Please, praise me! God!

732
00:48:04,741 --> 00:48:06,978
Please, please! God!

733
00:48:07,111 --> 00:48:08,478
Somebody help me!

734
00:48:08,645 --> 00:48:10,114
Aren't you going
to do something?

735
00:48:10,280 --> 00:48:13,450
Help!

736
00:48:19,023 --> 00:48:21,358
God damn you!

737
00:49:45,375 --> 00:49:46,543
Yeah, we're good.

738
00:49:47,277 --> 00:49:49,613
Hey, Wanda, do you know
if our paychecks are ready?

739
00:49:49,914 --> 00:49:52,749
Oh, I don't know. Go ask Curly.
He's in the back.

740
00:49:53,951 --> 00:49:55,519
- How are you doing?
- All right.

741
00:49:55,652 --> 00:49:57,788
Good.

742
00:49:57,922 --> 00:49:58,990
Come.

743
00:50:03,861 --> 00:50:06,363
Hey, I was wondering if
my paycheck was ready yet?

744
00:50:06,496 --> 00:50:07,999
Yeah, sure, sure, sure.

745
00:50:09,066 --> 00:50:12,502
You're...
You're that new girl, huh?

746
00:50:13,470 --> 00:50:14,839
What was your...
what was your name again?

747
00:50:14,972 --> 00:50:17,141
- I'm terrible with that stuff.
- It's okay. Uh, Mary.

748
00:50:17,275 --> 00:50:19,509
Mary, Mary, Mary, Mary, Mary.

749
00:50:20,443 --> 00:50:22,412
Mary Jane, Mary Jane.

750
00:50:23,747 --> 00:50:25,515
There we go, I got you.

751
00:50:26,449 --> 00:50:28,252
All right, here, there you go.

752
00:50:28,418 --> 00:50:29,686
- Thank you, sir.
- Yeah.

753
00:50:29,821 --> 00:50:31,788
Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
You just call me...

754
00:50:32,556 --> 00:50:34,591
call me Curly, all right?

755
00:50:35,193 --> 00:50:36,260
Today your day off?

756
00:50:36,560 --> 00:50:38,461
Yeah, I'm working
a double tomorrow.

757
00:50:38,628 --> 00:50:41,032
Oh, nice.
Well, you enjoy your day.

758
00:50:42,666 --> 00:50:43,800
Yeah, you too.

759
00:50:43,935 --> 00:50:45,535
Used to be a nun, huh?

760
00:50:46,804 --> 00:50:49,472
- Yeah, I was.
- Golly.

761
00:50:50,875 --> 00:50:52,676
I've always wanted
to meet a nun.

762
00:50:53,311 --> 00:50:55,847
Well, I'm sure I've met
enough for the both of us.

763
00:50:59,884 --> 00:51:02,954
I bet you have.
I bet you have. That's good.

764
00:51:03,486 --> 00:51:04,688
That's good.

765
00:51:05,923 --> 00:51:07,657
Hey, listen,
I'll be the first tell you

766
00:51:07,791 --> 00:51:09,626
that I don't for fraternizing
with the employees here,

767
00:51:09,759 --> 00:51:11,162
but since you're new in town,

768
00:51:11,295 --> 00:51:13,496
if you ever wanted to, you know.

769
00:51:15,365 --> 00:51:17,467
I'm out and about a lot.

770
00:51:17,734 --> 00:51:21,705
I don't know if you like
to drink or if you like wine.

771
00:51:23,540 --> 00:51:25,076
I like wine.

772
00:51:27,744 --> 00:51:29,814
I like...
I like other stuff, too.

773
00:51:33,851 --> 00:51:37,088
So... When was the last time
you went out with somebody?

774
00:51:38,289 --> 00:51:39,689
I don't know.

775
00:51:40,557 --> 00:51:42,093
I guess you got
all kinds of stuff

776
00:51:42,226 --> 00:51:44,161
just stirring up inside you.

777
00:51:48,698 --> 00:51:50,400
Yeah, well,
you just think about it.

778
00:51:50,533 --> 00:51:52,136
You know where to find me.

779
00:51:54,105 --> 00:51:56,673
Hey, enjoy your day off.

780
00:51:57,041 --> 00:51:58,109
Thank you.

781
00:52:20,965 --> 00:52:22,099
Later, girl.

782
00:52:28,406 --> 00:52:30,308
Now, take care.
Thank you so much.

783
00:52:30,808 --> 00:52:32,475
Hi, how can I help you?

784
00:52:32,609 --> 00:52:33,978
I just need to cash this check.

785
00:52:34,111 --> 00:52:36,646
Sure. You have
a checking account with us?

786
00:52:37,114 --> 00:52:38,316
I don't. Do I need one?

787
00:52:38,448 --> 00:52:40,550
Yes. In order to cash
your check, you do. Yeah.

788
00:52:40,684 --> 00:52:41,953
Okay.
Does it cost anything?

789
00:52:42,086 --> 00:52:45,089
It's $25,
but we have great benefits.

790
00:52:46,723 --> 00:52:48,993
- Twenty-five?
- Twenty-five, yes.

791
00:52:54,597 --> 00:52:56,100
You have a good day.

792
00:52:59,904 --> 00:53:02,273
<i>It seems
I remember doing this before,</i>

793
00:53:02,739 --> 00:53:04,942
<i>only then
I didn't have so far to fall.</i>

794
00:53:09,847 --> 00:53:11,614
<i>Where are you now, Martin?</i>

795
00:53:59,897 --> 00:54:02,532
He brought by his dog
thinking I would babysit.

796
00:54:02,766 --> 00:54:05,503
I mean,
now what kind of lazy SOB

797
00:54:05,702 --> 00:54:08,005
would think that I would
take care of his dog?

798
00:54:08,272 --> 00:54:10,174
Just crazy son of a...

799
00:54:10,707 --> 00:54:12,810
There you go.
You have a good day.

800
00:54:13,477 --> 00:54:17,547
I sure like that tie and
that pink shirt. Looks good.

801
00:54:18,516 --> 00:54:20,084
Oh. Hey, Mary,

802
00:54:20,284 --> 00:54:22,552
- could you do me a favor?
- What?

803
00:54:22,820 --> 00:54:26,556
Curly's yapping about
some spill on aisle four.

804
00:54:27,158 --> 00:54:28,526
Would you clean it up for me?

805
00:54:29,060 --> 00:54:32,196
Please? I mean,
my back is just killing me.

806
00:54:32,729 --> 00:54:34,098
I've been standing here

807
00:54:34,265 --> 00:54:38,069
- for four hours.
- Okay, fine. Fine.

808
00:54:38,601 --> 00:54:40,570
I'll watch your register.

809
00:54:43,441 --> 00:54:45,742
What the fuck
are you talking about?

810
00:54:45,910 --> 00:54:47,610
This is not the plan, all right?

811
00:54:47,744 --> 00:54:49,413
He was drunk
off the booze you made.

812
00:54:49,547 --> 00:54:50,780
- Okay?
- Oh, so it's my fault?

813
00:54:50,915 --> 00:54:52,183
- Yes.
- Listen,

814
00:54:52,316 --> 00:54:53,517
I have bills to pay.

815
00:54:53,650 --> 00:54:55,119
You have a bill to pay.

816
00:54:58,389 --> 00:55:00,858
He fucking gets drunk and
takes advantage of you?

817
00:55:00,991 --> 00:55:02,159
Go to hell, Curly.

818
00:55:11,035 --> 00:55:12,403
<i>How are you doing today,</i>

819
00:55:12,536 --> 00:55:14,171
- Sister Mary?
- I'm good.

820
00:55:14,671 --> 00:55:17,308
I just got off work and I'm
gonna go meet some friends.

821
00:55:17,908 --> 00:55:20,177
Please, if you want anything,
just help yourself.

822
00:55:20,311 --> 00:55:22,813
Well, I ain't gonna trouble
you none. I just...

823
00:55:22,980 --> 00:55:24,482
I just need a moment
of your time,

824
00:55:24,614 --> 00:55:28,018
if that's okay with you.
You got a little bit of time?

825
00:55:28,419 --> 00:55:30,154
Yeah. Is everything okay?

826
00:55:30,321 --> 00:55:32,289
Nah, nothing like that.

827
00:55:34,125 --> 00:55:37,660
You being a nun and all, when
you came looking for a place,

828
00:55:37,794 --> 00:55:41,031
well, you know,
I gave you a special deal.

829
00:55:41,165 --> 00:55:43,400
And I appreciate it a lot.
I really do.

830
00:55:43,534 --> 00:55:44,902
Ah, it was nothing.

831
00:55:45,503 --> 00:55:47,238
It feels good to help, it does.

832
00:55:47,770 --> 00:55:50,908
But well, my wife, Ona,

833
00:55:51,876 --> 00:55:53,676
she gets bent
out of shape a lot.

834
00:55:54,111 --> 00:55:55,813
But you gotta understand,
she's a juice head.

835
00:55:55,946 --> 00:55:58,349
Been that was for as
long as I can remember.

836
00:55:58,983 --> 00:56:01,118
And when she caught wind
of me helping out

837
00:56:01,252 --> 00:56:04,321
another young woman and...
Well, she got ideas.

838
00:56:05,022 --> 00:56:07,124
- Is there something that...
- Hold on now.

839
00:56:07,258 --> 00:56:09,326
I done told her wasn't
nothing going on between us,

840
00:56:09,460 --> 00:56:11,362
but that don't mean
she listened.

841
00:56:12,096 --> 00:56:14,797
See, we have a history
that stretches far and wide

842
00:56:14,932 --> 00:56:16,000
across this city.

843
00:56:16,467 --> 00:56:18,536
And I done quit drinking,
understand,

844
00:56:18,668 --> 00:56:20,037
I don't touch this stuff.

845
00:56:20,905 --> 00:56:24,175
This ain't my doing, but anyhow,

846
00:56:24,341 --> 00:56:27,278
I'm afraid I'm going to have
to break our promise.

847
00:56:27,511 --> 00:56:30,814
I know I told you
I needed 450 for this place.

848
00:56:31,248 --> 00:56:33,551
But in order to be fair
to the other tenants,

849
00:56:33,683 --> 00:56:37,087
be fair to Ona, I'm going
to have to ask for 600.

850
00:56:37,488 --> 00:56:38,889
Six hundred dollars?

851
00:56:39,590 --> 00:56:40,891
I'm real sorry.

852
00:56:41,425 --> 00:56:45,129
It ain't like me to promise one
thing and then take it back.

853
00:56:45,362 --> 00:56:49,099
Right. It's just $600
is a lot of money.

854
00:56:49,233 --> 00:56:50,800
My job doesn't pay very much.

855
00:56:51,302 --> 00:56:53,837
It's tough all over,
Sister Mary.

856
00:56:56,207 --> 00:56:57,408
I'm gonna give you
the number

857
00:56:57,541 --> 00:57:00,110
of another young woman
named Evonne.

858
00:57:00,244 --> 00:57:03,881
She works up at the laundromat.
She's always looking for help.

859
00:57:04,781 --> 00:57:06,584
It ain't much,
but maybe it'll help you

860
00:57:07,384 --> 00:57:09,719
get over the hump,
won't put you out much.

861
00:57:10,821 --> 00:57:12,289
The work's easy.

862
00:57:57,501 --> 00:58:01,305
- Hello, sisters.
- Sister Mary. Aww!

863
00:58:01,739 --> 00:58:03,240
You look wonderful.

864
00:58:03,374 --> 00:58:05,542
We just wanted
to see how you were doing.

865
00:58:05,843 --> 00:58:07,311
I'm fine.

866
00:58:08,312 --> 00:58:09,446
But how are you?

867
00:58:11,315 --> 00:58:12,383
Good.

868
00:58:15,085 --> 00:58:17,655
So, you are living in this town?

869
00:58:18,589 --> 00:58:21,791
Yeah, I got an apartment
near here not long ago.

870
00:58:22,226 --> 00:58:23,627
What a coincidence.

871
00:58:23,861 --> 00:58:26,697
We're only a few stops up
the bus line at Villa Lucia.

872
00:58:26,897 --> 00:58:28,899
It must be part of God's plan.

873
00:58:29,266 --> 00:58:31,035
- Do you like it?
- Oh, yes.

874
00:58:31,669 --> 00:58:35,139
But it's very different
than Santa Teresa.

875
00:58:35,706 --> 00:58:38,275
- It's a convent in the city.
- Can you imagine?

876
00:58:39,009 --> 00:58:41,111
After Sister Agnes was put away

877
00:58:41,245 --> 00:58:43,747
and Mother Superior
laid to rest...

878
00:58:45,549 --> 00:58:48,218
...the diocese thought it
best to relocate all of us.

879
00:58:48,352 --> 00:58:52,122
And the new order
is very different.

880
00:58:52,690 --> 00:58:55,225
So, what have you been up to?

881
00:58:56,026 --> 00:58:57,428
Well, I got a job.

882
00:58:57,628 --> 00:58:58,996
You're so brave.

883
00:58:59,263 --> 00:59:01,231
I always said that
you were the brave one.

884
00:59:01,365 --> 00:59:04,268
Didn't I always say that about
Sister Mary, Sister Ruth?

885
00:59:04,401 --> 00:59:07,538
Yes, she always
did say that about you.

886
00:59:08,038 --> 00:59:11,008
And also that
you were pure of heart.

887
00:59:11,141 --> 00:59:13,911
I did. I did. I did.

888
00:59:14,411 --> 00:59:16,447
We understand better than anyone

889
00:59:16,647 --> 00:59:19,750
how difficult it must've been
for you to leave the convent

890
00:59:19,883 --> 00:59:21,118
the way that you did.

891
00:59:21,385 --> 00:59:23,153
And we want you to know
we have your best interest

892
00:59:23,287 --> 00:59:25,889
at heart, but we feel that...

893
00:59:26,023 --> 00:59:29,693
Listen, we understand,
we really do.

894
00:59:30,260 --> 00:59:34,131
What happened was
traumatizing, to say the least.

895
00:59:34,765 --> 00:59:37,067
We want you to know
we have your best interest

896
00:59:37,201 --> 00:59:38,569
- at heart.
- Traumatizing

897
00:59:38,702 --> 00:59:40,471
for everybody. Traumatizing.

898
00:59:41,605 --> 00:59:44,274
The Church not only
lost Santa Theresa,

899
00:59:44,408 --> 00:59:48,011
I heard it was sold last month,
but Father Donaghue as well.

900
00:59:48,145 --> 00:59:49,613
That brave and gentle man.

901
00:59:49,747 --> 00:59:51,982
- What happened to him?
- He disappeared.

902
00:59:52,316 --> 00:59:54,385
No one has seen him since.

903
00:59:55,085 --> 00:59:57,087
We know that
it's been a lot to deal with,

904
00:59:57,221 --> 00:59:58,922
and we respect your choice.

905
00:59:59,323 --> 01:00:02,192
But we would also like
to extend our welcome

906
01:00:02,326 --> 01:00:04,995
if you wanted to join us
at Villa Lucia.

907
01:00:06,497 --> 01:00:11,201
Sister Honey, Sister Ruth,
I appreciate you reaching out,

908
01:00:11,335 --> 01:00:14,705
but after all
we've been through,

909
01:00:14,839 --> 01:00:18,709
it just felt right
to put everything behind me.

910
01:00:19,109 --> 01:00:20,377
We understand that.

911
01:00:20,644 --> 01:00:24,982
But may I ask you
a question, Mary?

912
01:00:25,682 --> 01:00:28,185
- Is it about Agnes?
- No.

913
01:00:30,087 --> 01:00:32,189
Do you still carry the faith?

914
01:00:37,027 --> 01:00:38,429
I don't know.

915
01:00:40,531 --> 01:00:42,800
I keep a crucifix
on the wall in my apartment

916
01:00:42,933 --> 01:00:44,435
and I pray sometimes,

917
01:00:44,568 --> 01:00:47,504
but I don't know what
it all means anymore.

918
01:00:48,439 --> 01:00:50,674
I mean, now that I'm
back in the real world,

919
01:00:50,809 --> 01:00:54,311
my time at the convent
feels like a dream.

920
01:00:56,747 --> 01:00:58,682
I keep asking for God
to guide me and...

921
01:01:01,018 --> 01:01:02,453
I hear nothing back.

922
01:01:09,126 --> 01:01:10,594
Did you know
among our other duties

923
01:01:10,727 --> 01:01:13,764
in the new order,
we service the poor.

924
01:01:14,498 --> 01:01:16,967
Yes, our soup lines
are very popular.

925
01:01:23,574 --> 01:01:25,742
Hey, I got this.

926
01:01:28,111 --> 01:01:30,614
Thanks. I'm gonna go clock out.

927
01:01:31,215 --> 01:01:34,184
- You all right?
- Yeah. Yeah.

928
01:01:43,060 --> 01:01:44,628
Hey, whoa.

929
01:01:45,996 --> 01:01:47,297
Who's taking over your shift?

930
01:01:47,531 --> 01:01:49,399
It's Wanda. She's out there now.

931
01:01:50,000 --> 01:01:52,135
Can't be Wanda.
I done fired Wanda.

932
01:01:53,103 --> 01:01:54,338
- No, I didn't know.
- Yeah, well,

933
01:01:54,471 --> 01:01:56,106
there's a lot
you don't know about.

934
01:01:56,740 --> 01:01:59,543
Especially what
goes on back here.

935
01:01:59,811 --> 01:02:01,078
I don't know.

936
01:02:01,345 --> 01:02:03,413
I noticed you've been picking up
a lot of double shifts.

937
01:02:04,481 --> 01:02:07,518
You're a worker.
Not like these other girls that,

938
01:02:08,385 --> 01:02:10,754
they don't care
about getting ahead.

939
01:02:11,990 --> 01:02:13,757
- My rent just went up.
- Yeah, I know

940
01:02:13,892 --> 01:02:15,058
your rent just went up.

941
01:02:15,192 --> 01:02:16,693
And I get it. I get it.

942
01:02:17,394 --> 01:02:19,663
We all got stuff like that
in our lives.

943
01:02:20,230 --> 01:02:22,032
Let me ask you something.
This job,

944
01:02:22,466 --> 01:02:25,569
all the double shifts,
the back-to-backs,

945
01:02:27,237 --> 01:02:28,739
is it gonna be enough?

946
01:02:30,607 --> 01:02:31,675
We'll see.

947
01:02:32,142 --> 01:02:33,577
Yeah, we'll see.

948
01:02:34,611 --> 01:02:35,712
How about this?

949
01:02:36,647 --> 01:02:40,651
How about I give you
a little extra cash.

950
01:02:42,386 --> 01:02:44,154
Then when I need a favor,

951
01:02:44,989 --> 01:02:47,691
- I can call on you.
- No, thank you.

952
01:02:49,726 --> 01:02:50,929
"No, thank you"?

953
01:02:51,094 --> 01:02:53,330
I appreciate it.
But I can't take that.

954
01:02:54,498 --> 01:02:56,466
My money's not good
enough for you?

955
01:02:57,067 --> 01:02:59,136
I'd just like to make it
my own way.

956
01:03:03,841 --> 01:03:05,309
Yeah, I can respect that.

957
01:03:08,178 --> 01:03:09,847
I'm going to get you
one of these days.

958
01:03:12,149 --> 01:03:13,650
I better go back up front.

959
01:03:13,952 --> 01:03:15,319
Yeah, go on.

960
01:03:28,498 --> 01:03:30,367
So, you're Earl's friend?

961
01:03:30,902 --> 01:03:32,135
Yeah.

962
01:03:33,136 --> 01:03:34,371
I'm his tenant.

963
01:03:34,839 --> 01:03:36,206
Mm-hmm.

964
01:03:37,207 --> 01:03:38,442
He's really nice.

965
01:03:39,309 --> 01:03:40,777
Oh, I'll bet he is.

966
01:04:03,700 --> 01:04:05,535
<i>Lady, if you don't know
the difference between</i>

967
01:04:05,669 --> 01:04:08,106
<i>a meatball and a matzo ball,
I cannot help you.</i>

968
01:04:09,706 --> 01:04:11,675
Anyway, please give it
up for my good friend,

969
01:04:11,809 --> 01:04:14,311
the great Paul Satchimo,
ladies and gentlemen.

970
01:04:14,444 --> 01:04:16,480
Paul Satchimo.

971
01:04:18,715 --> 01:04:20,784
Hey, everybody.

972
01:04:21,019 --> 01:04:22,386
You know what I've noticed?

973
01:04:23,353 --> 01:04:25,857
Not everybody's trying.
You ever notice that?

974
01:04:26,423 --> 01:04:29,861
Okay, I saw a guy
on the sidewalk yesterday,

975
01:04:29,994 --> 01:04:32,162
he was pushing a shopping cart
full of newspapers,

976
01:04:32,562 --> 01:04:34,098
wearing pink stretch pants.

977
01:04:34,398 --> 01:04:36,968
He was trying.

978
01:04:37,167 --> 01:04:38,936
He went to the bank
to get a loan.

979
01:04:40,170 --> 01:04:41,672
They weren't trying at all.

980
01:04:42,606 --> 01:04:45,342
I went to this bar back here
to cash in my two drink limit,

981
01:04:45,475 --> 01:04:47,644
and, man..
...they weren't trying either.

982
01:04:47,812 --> 01:04:52,416
So, now here I am,
up here trying, dead sober.

983
01:04:52,582 --> 01:04:55,019
Okay. Check this out.

984
01:04:55,153 --> 01:04:58,156
Some people are trying,
some people aren't trying.

985
01:04:58,622 --> 01:05:00,424
Some people
aren't even trying to try.

986
01:05:00,557 --> 01:05:04,294
But some people
are trying to not try.

987
01:05:05,429 --> 01:05:11,368
And some people are trying
to try not trying.

988
01:05:13,071 --> 01:05:15,106
Hey, if I thought that
could work, I might try it.

989
01:05:18,408 --> 01:05:21,278
Anyway, what do you
guys want to talk about?

990
01:05:22,013 --> 01:05:23,246
Money?

991
01:05:24,882 --> 01:05:25,850
Jobs?

992
01:05:27,284 --> 01:05:30,420
I had a regular type
job once, I did.

993
01:05:32,389 --> 01:05:34,092
I was a cold caller

994
01:05:34,926 --> 01:05:38,295
selling restaurant quality
meats at wholesale prices.

995
01:05:38,462 --> 01:05:40,098
I was not very good at it.

996
01:05:42,365 --> 01:05:43,667
One night...

997
01:05:44,301 --> 01:05:46,470
Yes, one night...

998
01:05:48,973 --> 01:05:50,007
victory.

999
01:05:51,742 --> 01:05:54,644
I sold 25 pounds
of New York strips

1000
01:05:54,812 --> 01:05:57,849
all across the greater
metropolitan area.

1001
01:05:59,117 --> 01:06:01,018
My name topped the sales board.

1002
01:06:01,485 --> 01:06:05,123
I rose from my cubicle
like a champion

1003
01:06:05,890 --> 01:06:10,727
as my colleagues watched
with... with, um...

1004
01:06:11,428 --> 01:06:12,796
with envy,

1005
01:06:13,497 --> 01:06:14,765
and disdain
because they knew...

1006
01:06:14,899 --> 01:06:16,500
...that I had been chosen

1007
01:06:16,666 --> 01:06:19,336
by the team leader, Mark,

1008
01:06:20,470 --> 01:06:23,273
to enter the inner sanctum,

1009
01:06:23,573 --> 01:06:25,275
the deep freeze,

1010
01:06:26,376 --> 01:06:29,412
the deep freeze
which held a cornucopia

1011
01:06:30,948 --> 01:06:32,716
of frozen meat products.

1012
01:06:33,350 --> 01:06:34,852
And as I stood there,

1013
01:06:36,286 --> 01:06:37,521
gazing into the...

1014
01:06:38,522 --> 01:06:40,757
the glistening vista
of frozen meats,

1015
01:06:40,892 --> 01:06:45,963
Mark said to me and I quote,
"Pick anything you want."

1016
01:06:50,902 --> 01:06:52,402
Anyway, that's it.
That's the story.

1017
01:06:52,536 --> 01:06:54,906
It's not really a joke, I guess.

1018
01:06:55,039 --> 01:06:59,877
It's really more
just a 38-year-old man

1019
01:07:00,011 --> 01:07:03,147
sitting alone in his apartment,
eating three pounds of sausage.

1020
01:07:07,651 --> 01:07:10,087
You know what, that sausage
didn't make me happy.

1021
01:07:10,221 --> 01:07:14,125
Things, things do not
make people happy.

1022
01:07:14,959 --> 01:07:17,727
Do you know what does make
people happy? Do you know?

1023
01:07:19,096 --> 01:07:20,430
Connection.

1024
01:07:21,631 --> 01:07:26,770
Us, connecting in this room,
right now.

1025
01:07:26,904 --> 01:07:28,873
Forget about the sausage.

1026
01:07:29,006 --> 01:07:30,774
It's an electricity.
Do you feel it?

1027
01:07:30,908 --> 01:07:32,576
- Right now, it's happening.
- <i>It's us.</i>

1028
01:07:32,742 --> 01:07:34,377
<i>We're communicating
with one another.</i>

1029
01:07:34,511 --> 01:07:36,147
<i>That's where real happiness
comes from. I don't know.</i>

1030
01:07:36,280 --> 01:07:38,748
<i>Anyway, what else you
guys want to talk about?</i>

1031
01:08:03,207 --> 01:08:05,109
Frozen meats.

1032
01:08:14,051 --> 01:08:15,052
Hey, hey, hey.

1033
01:08:15,253 --> 01:08:17,687
What is so funny?
People are complaining.

1034
01:08:22,059 --> 01:08:24,228
That's what I thought.

1035
01:08:24,427 --> 01:08:26,529
Would you calm the fuck down?

1036
01:08:28,065 --> 01:08:29,499
I'm sorry.

1037
01:08:31,135 --> 01:08:32,402
Jesus Christ.

1038
01:08:45,283 --> 01:08:47,818
<i>It can't compare
to the nonsense,</i>

1039
01:08:47,952 --> 01:08:49,452
<i>She started saying things.</i>

1040
01:08:59,196 --> 01:09:01,531
And concentrate
on the things you can handle.

1041
01:09:02,233 --> 01:09:04,734
Sometimes,
I gotta pray for strength.

1042
01:09:05,403 --> 01:09:06,603
Like the good book says,

1043
01:09:06,736 --> 01:09:08,940
"Like a dog
returneth to its vomit,

1044
01:09:09,073 --> 01:09:11,309
so a fool repeats
his foolishness."

1045
01:09:11,876 --> 01:09:14,211
Mary, are you even
listening to me?

1046
01:09:20,351 --> 01:09:22,652
Hi. Do you need any help?

1047
01:09:23,287 --> 01:09:26,556
Um, no, I don't think so.
I just came in here to...

1048
01:09:27,624 --> 01:09:29,193
Wait, what do people
come in here to do?

1049
01:09:29,393 --> 01:09:32,430
Um, I can show
you how the machines work.

1050
01:09:34,432 --> 01:09:36,834
I think I got it, but thank you.

1051
01:09:37,435 --> 01:09:38,635
No problem.

1052
01:09:43,573 --> 01:09:44,909
Okay, well.

1053
01:09:45,042 --> 01:09:47,078
Yeah, just let me know
if you need anything.

1054
01:09:47,211 --> 01:09:48,179
Sure.

1055
01:09:56,220 --> 01:09:58,755
- Who's that?
- He's a comedian.

1056
01:09:58,956 --> 01:10:01,959
He don't look funny.
Is he funny?

1057
01:10:02,625 --> 01:10:04,494
Yes. He's a comedian.

1058
01:10:23,314 --> 01:10:25,216
- Oh, hey.
- Hi.

1059
01:10:27,517 --> 01:10:29,519
Am I not allowed
to smoke out here?

1060
01:10:29,753 --> 01:10:30,988
It's fine.

1061
01:10:31,588 --> 01:10:33,656
Cool. You never know these days.

1062
01:10:35,826 --> 01:10:37,094
I saw your show.

1063
01:10:38,561 --> 01:10:41,765
Oh, okay. Well, no wonder.

1064
01:10:42,732 --> 01:10:44,268
Well, thanks for coming.

1065
01:10:51,842 --> 01:10:53,210
So, what did you think?

1066
01:10:53,743 --> 01:10:55,112
Of the show?

1067
01:10:55,246 --> 01:10:56,914
Yeah. Did you laugh?

1068
01:10:57,580 --> 01:10:58,748
- No.
- Huh!

1069
01:11:00,784 --> 01:11:02,319
Everyone's a critic.

1070
01:11:03,487 --> 01:11:05,089
It wasn't my best night.

1071
01:11:07,425 --> 01:11:08,893
But I laughed later.

1072
01:11:10,361 --> 01:11:12,063
Well, I guess that's something,

1073
01:11:12,830 --> 01:11:14,697
the slow burn kind of a thing.

1074
01:11:17,234 --> 01:11:21,038
Of course, the point is
to laugh during the show.

1075
01:11:21,172 --> 01:11:24,241
That's kind of the idea,
I guess.

1076
01:11:25,742 --> 01:11:27,278
Hell, I dunno.
You know what?

1077
01:11:27,978 --> 01:11:30,247
Laugh when you wanna laugh.
It's a free country.

1078
01:11:32,782 --> 01:11:34,151
I knew Agnes.

1079
01:11:36,821 --> 01:11:38,222
Excuse me?

1080
01:11:38,956 --> 01:11:42,026
I was in the convent
with Agnes before she left.

1081
01:11:44,295 --> 01:11:45,329
Oh.

1082
01:11:46,596 --> 01:11:47,932
Wow.

1083
01:11:48,866 --> 01:11:50,167
She was in love with you.

1084
01:12:14,892 --> 01:12:16,360
You look nice.

1085
01:12:21,798 --> 01:12:25,269
I have to say I haven't
even heard her name in...

1086
01:12:26,470 --> 01:12:27,938
I don't know, it's been awhile.

1087
01:12:28,239 --> 01:12:30,207
You must've known her
pretty well.

1088
01:12:31,475 --> 01:12:32,775
We had talks.

1089
01:12:33,110 --> 01:12:35,778
Not a lot, but the ones we had
were important.

1090
01:12:36,679 --> 01:12:38,115
She was incredible.

1091
01:12:39,016 --> 01:12:40,683
And do you know
where she is now?

1092
01:12:40,818 --> 01:12:43,320
You mentioned
she left the convent.

1093
01:12:44,822 --> 01:12:47,224
She's in a different place now.

1094
01:12:47,992 --> 01:12:49,426
What do you mean?

1095
01:12:50,793 --> 01:12:52,296
I don't want to talk about it.

1096
01:12:53,631 --> 01:12:54,965
I understand.

1097
01:12:56,367 --> 01:12:59,069
I always wondered about her,
to be honest.

1098
01:13:00,171 --> 01:13:03,773
The minute that things
got hard between us

1099
01:13:04,141 --> 01:13:06,277
was the minute she gave up.
And I never bought into any

1100
01:13:06,410 --> 01:13:08,212
of her religious horseshit,
by the way.

1101
01:13:08,512 --> 01:13:11,282
I'm sorry if I offend, but I...

1102
01:13:11,849 --> 01:13:15,853
I couldn't understand why she
went to such great lengths

1103
01:13:15,986 --> 01:13:18,455
for her salvation.

1104
01:13:19,590 --> 01:13:20,925
Anyway, we were young.

1105
01:13:21,691 --> 01:13:25,462
I... I didn't usually make
a habit of dating my students,

1106
01:13:25,596 --> 01:13:29,066
but I, you know, in that case
I made an exception.

1107
01:13:30,834 --> 01:13:32,870
How long have you
been a funny man?

1108
01:13:34,737 --> 01:13:36,941
A what?

1109
01:13:38,609 --> 01:13:41,445
I guess, I don't know,
I've always been funny.

1110
01:13:41,845 --> 01:13:45,015
I, uh, I was funny
when I was a kid,

1111
01:13:45,349 --> 01:13:48,852
started putting an act
together when I was like 19,

1112
01:13:48,986 --> 01:13:52,856
and I should probably be
farther along in my career

1113
01:13:52,990 --> 01:13:54,757
than I am, but...

1114
01:13:55,059 --> 01:13:58,829
But you're comfortable?
You like who you are?

1115
01:13:59,697 --> 01:14:00,931
Yeah, I think so.

1116
01:14:01,332 --> 01:14:04,068
I... I make just
the right amount of money

1117
01:14:04,201 --> 01:14:09,273
and I... I'm happy
living life the way that I do.

1118
01:14:09,406 --> 01:14:10,574
I don't,

1119
01:14:11,609 --> 01:14:15,312
I don't need fame or fortune.
I do what I love.

1120
01:14:16,413 --> 01:14:18,482
How about you?
What's your story?

1121
01:14:19,650 --> 01:14:21,385
Why did you leave the convent?

1122
01:14:23,020 --> 01:14:24,555
That was Agnes, really.

1123
01:14:25,389 --> 01:14:27,691
She convinced me there
was maybe more to life

1124
01:14:27,825 --> 01:14:28,993
outside the Church.

1125
01:14:30,995 --> 01:14:32,396
So, what do you think?

1126
01:14:33,497 --> 01:14:36,267
I don't think either of us
ever belonged there.

1127
01:14:39,069 --> 01:14:40,671
Is there anything
you're passionate about?

1128
01:14:41,005 --> 01:14:42,439
Anything at all?

1129
01:14:44,774 --> 01:14:46,076
I don't know.

1130
01:14:46,443 --> 01:14:50,014
The only thing I ever worked
hard for was becoming a sister.

1131
01:14:52,283 --> 01:14:55,853
Well, geez, Mary, that's about
the saddest thing I ever heard.

1132
01:14:58,222 --> 01:15:00,190
Can I ask you
a personal question?

1133
01:15:01,392 --> 01:15:03,961
Have you ever felt love
outside of God?

1134
01:15:11,669 --> 01:15:15,205
Hey, Paul, don't mind us.
We just been here a few hours.

1135
01:15:15,539 --> 01:15:17,174
Are you gonna introduce
us to your friend?

1136
01:15:17,308 --> 01:15:21,378
Oh, sorry. Peter, Evelyn, Pedro.
This is Mary.

1137
01:15:21,512 --> 01:15:23,047
Nice to meet you.
He's the best.

1138
01:15:23,180 --> 01:15:24,515
I always say he's the best.

1139
01:15:39,697 --> 01:15:43,067
Anyway, here we are.

1140
01:15:46,670 --> 01:15:50,274
You can feel free
to make yourself at home.

1141
01:15:54,378 --> 01:15:56,980
I don't know, have a seat
or whatever you do.

1142
01:15:57,816 --> 01:16:00,017
I'll be right back.

1143
01:16:07,826 --> 01:16:09,293
I like your place.

1144
01:16:09,626 --> 01:16:11,128
Thank you.

1145
01:16:17,701 --> 01:16:19,470
You were the funniest man?

1146
01:16:20,003 --> 01:16:22,773
- Like in the world?
- What's that?

1147
01:16:23,440 --> 01:16:26,977
Oh, that? Yeah.
That was many years ago.

1148
01:16:28,011 --> 01:16:29,646
Who's the funniest man now?

1149
01:16:32,049 --> 01:16:33,450
Um...

1150
01:16:34,718 --> 01:16:36,086
I actually don't know.

1151
01:16:37,888 --> 01:16:39,156
Do you like music?

1152
01:16:39,757 --> 01:16:40,991
I used to.

1153
01:16:42,326 --> 01:16:43,427
Okay.

1154
01:16:46,797 --> 01:16:49,333
You read a lot. Books.

1155
01:16:49,533 --> 01:16:53,270
Oh, yeah. Well, as I said,
I used to teach.

1156
01:16:54,004 --> 01:16:55,606
There was a time...

1157
01:16:56,640 --> 01:16:58,843
I can't say that I really
have the focus to just...

1158
01:16:59,910 --> 01:17:03,447
to just sit and read a book.
I haven't for a while.

1159
01:17:03,580 --> 01:17:05,282
I don't know
what happened there.

1160
01:17:06,717 --> 01:17:07,985
What do you do now?

1161
01:17:08,285 --> 01:17:10,954
You mean to take
the place of reading?

1162
01:17:11,922 --> 01:17:13,323
Um...

1163
01:17:14,024 --> 01:17:17,194
I don't know. I guess I drink.

1164
01:17:23,667 --> 01:17:26,537
I have to say, I don't know why
I'm being so honest with you.

1165
01:17:26,871 --> 01:17:29,440
I know that we just met,
and I...

1166
01:17:31,108 --> 01:17:33,076
I don't know.
Well, you're not...

1167
01:17:34,378 --> 01:17:38,015
you're not the usual sort
of woman that I associate with.

1168
01:17:44,588 --> 01:17:46,590
You asked me a question
in the bar

1169
01:17:46,858 --> 01:17:48,492
before your friends came.

1170
01:17:49,426 --> 01:17:50,594
Yeah.

1171
01:17:50,761 --> 01:17:53,130
I asked you if you'd ever
been in love before.

1172
01:17:57,134 --> 01:17:58,569
The answer is yes.

1173
01:18:03,474 --> 01:18:07,311
When I was really young,
I got pregnant.

1174
01:18:09,480 --> 01:18:12,516
Back then, I was
a different kind of person.

1175
01:18:13,517 --> 01:18:16,787
I don't even
remember the conception

1176
01:18:16,987 --> 01:18:19,590
or who the guy was.

1177
01:18:22,559 --> 01:18:25,128
Anyway, I decided
to keep the baby.

1178
01:18:28,098 --> 01:18:29,366
And it was like...

1179
01:18:31,468 --> 01:18:34,505
a whole new window
opened up on my life.

1180
01:18:37,508 --> 01:18:42,179
I loved my son
with everything I had.

1181
01:18:44,348 --> 01:18:47,518
I loved the way he laughed.

1182
01:18:47,784 --> 01:18:50,354
I loved to hear him cry
when I left the room.

1183
01:18:50,487 --> 01:18:55,292
I loved the color of his cheeks
and his stupid little teeth.

1184
01:18:58,930 --> 01:19:00,264
I was even...

1185
01:19:02,032 --> 01:19:03,600
starting to love God.

1186
01:19:18,248 --> 01:19:21,251
<i>Then, one day,
God took my son away</i>

1187
01:19:21,385 --> 01:19:22,854
<i>and left me with nothing.</i>

1188
01:19:23,353 --> 01:19:26,123
<i>I prayed.
I begged God to tell me why.</i>

1189
01:19:26,423 --> 01:19:29,593
- <i>And he said...</i>
- <i>What'd he say?</i>

1190
01:19:32,629 --> 01:19:34,097
He said nothing.

1191
01:19:38,870 --> 01:19:43,041
I don't know what lives there
in that nothingness now.

1192
01:19:43,173 --> 01:19:44,408
But he just...

1193
01:19:47,812 --> 01:19:49,146
he put a spell on me.

1194
01:20:43,901 --> 01:20:45,802
What is the matter with you?

1195
01:20:46,037 --> 01:20:48,505
Oh, I'm sorry.

1196
01:20:49,272 --> 01:20:52,043
Stop fucking laughing, then.

1197
01:20:52,376 --> 01:20:53,744
I'm sorry.
No, I'm really sorry.

1198
01:20:53,878 --> 01:20:56,047
- Why did you do that?
- I'm really sorry.

1199
01:20:58,348 --> 01:21:00,517
My face!
I have a show tomorrow night!

1200
01:21:00,651 --> 01:21:02,786
- Are you sick or something?
- No, please. No.

1201
01:21:02,920 --> 01:21:05,023
Just... just leave, okay?
Come on. Just...

1202
01:21:18,002 --> 01:21:20,071
<i>Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.</i>

1203
01:21:20,237 --> 01:21:21,505
Blessed art thou amongst women

1204
01:21:21,638 --> 01:21:23,007
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb, Jesus.

1205
01:21:23,141 --> 01:21:24,708
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners

1206
01:21:24,842 --> 01:21:26,610
now and at the hour
of our death, amen.

1207
01:21:26,743 --> 01:21:29,080
Dear God, please listen to me,
please listen to me.

1208
01:21:32,850 --> 01:21:37,088
Please, I beg you. I beg you.
I'll do anything you want me to.

1209
01:21:37,220 --> 01:21:38,488
Please just talk to me.

1210
01:21:38,622 --> 01:21:42,160
Please just show me,
show me, please.

1211
01:22:39,183 --> 01:22:40,684
Excuse me.

1212
01:22:41,651 --> 01:22:43,320
<i>Yes, I know it's a big diocese,</i>

1213
01:22:43,453 --> 01:22:44,621
but someone in your office

1214
01:22:44,755 --> 01:22:46,157
has to know
who I'm talking about.

1215
01:22:46,389 --> 01:22:48,391
He was around the tragedy
at the Santa Teresa convent.

1216
01:22:48,525 --> 01:22:49,894
I was a sister there.

1217
01:22:50,161 --> 01:22:53,563
Okay. Yes. Okay.
I can hold on, but I am at work.

1218
01:22:55,133 --> 01:22:57,835
- What the fuck are you doing?
- It's an emergency.

1219
01:22:59,369 --> 01:23:00,704
Crazy bitch.

1220
01:23:04,108 --> 01:23:05,877
Hello? Okay, hold on.

1221
01:23:08,545 --> 01:23:10,081
What the fuck is wrong with you?

1222
01:23:10,248 --> 01:23:13,350
You're sure that's
the right number? Thank you.

1223
01:23:14,484 --> 01:23:15,953
You're fired.

1224
01:23:21,926 --> 01:23:23,360
You're fired!

1225
01:23:25,163 --> 01:23:27,031
<i>You think you
might be possessed?</i>

1226
01:23:28,166 --> 01:23:29,332
That's serious.

1227
01:23:29,566 --> 01:23:32,736
No, not really, I guess.

1228
01:23:33,436 --> 01:23:34,839
You shouldn't joke about that.

1229
01:23:35,305 --> 01:23:38,075
I think I just remember Agnes.

1230
01:23:39,442 --> 01:23:40,945
Were you two close?

1231
01:23:43,680 --> 01:23:46,383
Yes. Yes, we were.

1232
01:23:47,717 --> 01:23:50,720
We had a good conversation
right before she, uh...

1233
01:23:51,588 --> 01:23:54,791
you know. Anyway,
she helped me rethink my life.

1234
01:23:54,992 --> 01:23:58,328
That's great. I never
would've guessed that about her.

1235
01:24:02,365 --> 01:24:03,767
So, how's it going?

1236
01:24:05,303 --> 01:24:06,570
Oh, I don't know.

1237
01:24:07,271 --> 01:24:10,607
I just walked out on my job,
so....

1238
01:24:12,977 --> 01:24:15,279
You know, after what
happened at Santa Teresa,

1239
01:24:15,412 --> 01:24:17,447
the Church would probably
put you up for a few months

1240
01:24:17,581 --> 01:24:18,983
if you can't make rent.

1241
01:24:19,250 --> 01:24:22,887
Thanks, but I'll figure it out.
I'll call you again if I can't.

1242
01:24:23,520 --> 01:24:24,788
Now, I'm told
your former sisters

1243
01:24:24,922 --> 01:24:27,258
invited you to join them
at Villa Lucia.

1244
01:24:28,025 --> 01:24:29,526
Do you think
the life of a religious

1245
01:24:29,659 --> 01:24:31,128
could appeal to you again?

1246
01:24:33,231 --> 01:24:34,431
I don't think so.

1247
01:24:34,698 --> 01:24:36,167
It's different
than Santa Teresa.

1248
01:24:36,300 --> 01:24:38,668
It's less confined.

1249
01:24:40,437 --> 01:24:41,806
But if you no longer
hear the call.

1250
01:24:41,939 --> 01:24:43,241
Maybe not then.

1251
01:24:43,540 --> 01:24:44,976
Well, maybe not.

1252
01:24:45,810 --> 01:24:47,044
A wise man once taught me

1253
01:24:47,178 --> 01:24:48,980
it's not something
you should try to fake.

1254
01:24:51,282 --> 01:24:54,584
So, can you think of any other
work you'd be passionate about?

1255
01:24:56,120 --> 01:24:57,420
No.

1256
01:24:58,622 --> 01:25:00,892
You, uh...

1257
01:25:02,559 --> 01:25:03,828
Oh, never mind.

1258
01:25:04,594 --> 01:25:05,897
What?

1259
01:25:06,831 --> 01:25:08,598
It can't be that bad.

1260
01:25:11,302 --> 01:25:12,636
I had a son.

1261
01:25:13,371 --> 01:25:14,604
He died.

1262
01:25:15,339 --> 01:25:17,407
Just now, I was thinking how
much I would've liked him

1263
01:25:17,540 --> 01:25:19,476
to grow up and be like you.

1264
01:25:20,677 --> 01:25:22,280
And that's way too much.

1265
01:25:22,746 --> 01:25:25,049
No, it's not.

1266
01:25:26,449 --> 01:25:27,885
It's just, um...

1267
01:25:30,620 --> 01:25:32,656
my mother died.
I was 11.

1268
01:25:37,361 --> 01:25:38,896
So, that means a lot.

1269
01:25:43,935 --> 01:25:46,037
Can I ask you
a spiritual question?

1270
01:25:46,904 --> 01:25:48,306
Yeah,
of course, it's my job.

1271
01:25:48,438 --> 01:25:50,707
I hope I can answer it.

1272
01:25:51,842 --> 01:25:53,543
How do we know God?

1273
01:25:54,544 --> 01:25:56,013
Well, there's scripture.

1274
01:25:56,147 --> 01:25:58,715
And there's a few thousand
years of church teaching.

1275
01:25:58,849 --> 01:26:00,084
I'm not talking
about any of that.

1276
01:26:00,217 --> 01:26:04,521
I'm talking about contact,
connection.

1277
01:26:04,654 --> 01:26:07,325
How do we know God?
How do you know God?

1278
01:26:07,691 --> 01:26:09,894
- In this world?
- Yeah.

1279
01:26:14,365 --> 01:26:18,102
Okay. Yeah, I'll try.

1280
01:26:19,803 --> 01:26:23,606
Just remember, I haven't
been a priest very long, so.

1281
01:26:26,143 --> 01:26:27,144
All right.

1282
01:26:27,311 --> 01:26:28,913
Let's take this sandwich.
We're hungry

1283
01:26:29,046 --> 01:26:30,815
and it's all we've got,
but let's look at it.

1284
01:26:31,048 --> 01:26:33,451
First, there's this
terrible crappy bread

1285
01:26:33,583 --> 01:26:36,087
you've got to get through.
And that's most of it, really.

1286
01:26:36,220 --> 01:26:37,487
It's so much bread,

1287
01:26:37,721 --> 01:26:40,891
this starchy, substandard
awfulness, this filler.

1288
01:26:41,092 --> 01:26:42,927
Most of this sandwich,
most of this world,

1289
01:26:43,060 --> 01:26:44,627
just a bunch of junk
to chew through,

1290
01:26:44,761 --> 01:26:46,130
hoping that it ends soon.

1291
01:26:48,165 --> 01:26:50,633
Then you got
flavorless tomatoes,

1292
01:26:51,634 --> 01:26:53,904
this wilted lettuce.
Cheese looks like death.

1293
01:26:54,171 --> 01:26:56,474
Sauce, if you had a jar of it,
you'd probably die.

1294
01:26:56,673 --> 01:26:59,143
But hidden within all
this sound and fury

1295
01:26:59,910 --> 01:27:01,678
is a thin sliver of meat.
And that's the stuff

1296
01:27:01,846 --> 01:27:03,347
we really came here for. Right?

1297
01:27:03,481 --> 01:27:05,916
You can imagine a better
sandwich, a better world...

1298
01:27:07,351 --> 01:27:08,651
I know I can.

1299
01:27:09,753 --> 01:27:11,188
More fulfilling, with more meat.

1300
01:27:11,422 --> 01:27:13,723
Just like you can imagine
more good people

1301
01:27:13,858 --> 01:27:16,293
when you've met one
really good one, you know?

1302
01:27:17,495 --> 01:27:18,628
Okay.

1303
01:27:19,030 --> 01:27:20,563
So for Christians, at least,

1304
01:27:20,697 --> 01:27:23,968
that one really good person
who brings out the best in you,

1305
01:27:24,101 --> 01:27:26,103
makes you want to bring out
the best in other people,

1306
01:27:26,237 --> 01:27:27,138
that's Christ.

1307
01:27:27,972 --> 01:27:31,175
And if you look hard enough,
he's in this world.

1308
01:27:32,843 --> 01:27:34,211
He's the meat in the sandwich,

1309
01:27:34,345 --> 01:27:36,780
this stuff we'd realize
we were really hungry for

1310
01:27:36,914 --> 01:27:39,216
if we knew ourselves
like God knows us.

1311
01:27:41,485 --> 01:27:43,320
Because Christ is God incarnate,

1312
01:27:43,454 --> 01:27:45,722
and carne means meat, flesh.

1313
01:27:46,190 --> 01:27:48,459
You know, he comes to us
in a form that we can recognize,

1314
01:27:48,625 --> 01:27:50,861
God in a meat suit like us.

1315
01:27:51,761 --> 01:27:52,997
God <i>con carne.</i>

1316
01:27:53,297 --> 01:27:56,967
But to know him in this world,
to really know him,

1317
01:27:57,101 --> 01:27:59,003
you have to deal
with the whole sandwich.

1318
01:27:59,503 --> 01:28:01,172
And if you chew through it,

1319
01:28:02,173 --> 01:28:04,707
and you keep a pure heart,
you can know God,

1320
01:28:06,143 --> 01:28:07,677
taste God.

1321
01:28:11,449 --> 01:28:12,850
You just ate God.

1322
01:28:14,018 --> 01:28:16,353
Well, he invites us to.
That's the sacrament.

1323
01:28:16,954 --> 01:28:18,956
Take this, my body,
and eat of it.

1324
01:28:20,257 --> 01:28:23,894
He invites us to the feast.
And it's a gift freely given.

1325
01:28:24,095 --> 01:28:26,629
And as long as we're willing
to open our hearts.

1326
01:28:29,333 --> 01:28:31,801
When I open my heart,
it just hurts.

1327
01:28:32,369 --> 01:28:33,736
That's right.

1328
01:28:34,637 --> 01:28:35,973
I think you know.

1329
01:28:38,476 --> 01:28:39,877
Something has to go out of you.

1330
01:28:40,144 --> 01:28:42,847
To make room
for the spirit to come in.

1331
01:28:45,416 --> 01:28:47,151
We get there by loss.

1332
01:28:49,820 --> 01:28:51,522
That's what spiritual hunger is.

1333
01:28:52,156 --> 01:28:54,325
And joy can follow, too,
if we let it.

1334
01:28:54,959 --> 01:28:58,129
Like we have to say goodbye
to the people we love,

1335
01:28:59,463 --> 01:29:01,265
the people we care about.

1336
01:29:05,336 --> 01:29:06,669
I'm afraid so.

1337
01:29:07,972 --> 01:29:10,007
Hopefully not too soon.

1338
01:29:13,477 --> 01:29:17,815
But no one can ever
actually say goodbye, right?

1339
01:29:24,388 --> 01:29:25,856
No.

1340
01:29:40,116 --> 01:29:45,116
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